Chronicles of Mortality

When I created these images, I was standing at the threshold of depression. I wanted to capture what was happening within me, a process too gradual for others to see, yet devastating in its progression.

In the first photograph, I placed my subject on crimson fabric, her white form still holding some semblance of life despite the beginnings of abandonment. I chose red deliberately, it represents the emotional world I was leaving behind, the last flashes of feeling before the numbness set in. The figure lies suspended between vitality and surrender, much as I felt caught between my former self and what I was becoming.

The second image reveals where that journey led. The vivid red backdrop has vanished, replaced by darkness—the colorless void that depression creates. My bride figure, traditionally a symbol of hope and new beginnings, instead embodies abandoned potential. The increased spiderwebs weren't accidental. They represent time's passage in a state of complete stillness, when we become so immobile that life itself weaves around us while we remain unchanged.

Psychologically, depression often manifests this way, not as a sudden break but as incremental disconnection. Our minds create distance as a defense mechanism, gradually separating us from overwhelming emotions until we find ourselves isolated in grayscale, watching life happen from behind an invisible barrier. The wedding dress symbolizes this perfectly, dreams and promises preserved but never fulfilled, frozen in a moment that cannot progress.

I share these images as a visual diary of that internal landscape that's so difficult to articulate through words alone. For those who have walked similar paths, perhaps you'll recognize something of your experience here. For those who haven't, this is a glimpse into how depression transforms a person, not by destroying them instantly, but by slowly, methodically unraveling their connection to life's vibrancy.

The decay I've depicted isn't physical but spiritual, the slow erosion of self that happens when our inner light begins to dim.